how can you make your thinking free,
if you're so busy protecting your convictions?
we spend hours of our day defending convictions, things that we 'know', things that we learn, things that we're told are good things to think, and even though they very often don't help us {actually hinder us...}, we would rather keep thinking those things, hang on to them, with a passion that comes close to frantic, than free ourselves of 'm...
open our thoughts, make space for new thoughts, and let them float in and out, like butterflies...
live lightly, easily...
but as i saw this weekend, it's way more scary to let go of old {ill-making, depressing} convictions, than it is to let them go, to see what happens...
someone that i know and love very much would rather stick {clamp themselves} to ways of thinking that are destructive, feel sorry for themselves and hope for help than to claim their own happiness, to surrender themselves to the weird, crazy, random Thing that life is... and feel Happy...
and it is scary...
i know - i've been there...
it's scary as hell...
but i came to a point where i thought that the alternative - illness, depression, loneliness, death - was way more scary than the Letting Go-option...
so i jumped in...
and i never want to go back again...
i really, really hope that things will change, that the Great Unknown appears less scary than The Reality of Carrying On Regardless...
but the horse can be led to water, it's quite another to make it drink, of course...
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